Post by Earthquake on Jan 26, 2018 7:10:42 GMT
I know that I have overall been way out of loop in terms of Red Hot Chili Peppers. I have been much busier with my life to where I have little time to goof around online anymore. I began embarking on this journey, this self discovery starting in late October 2017. I slowly began to realize my sexuality. In late October, I at first thought that I was asexual and also took on the label of pansensual which means aesthetic attraction(not sexual) to every sex. I began to realize that that was not accurate. I finally figured out what my sexual orientation was just last month on December 10th(or 11th). Here it is: I'M GAY. I have always actually been attracted to females. I know that I have fantasized about meeting Anthony Kiedis and swooning over how attractive he was especially in the 80s and 90s, but I also stated that I was not comfortable with actually getting in bed with him or any guy really. Even if I did express feeling sexual attraction towards guys such as the blond-haired surfer type, I was not being honest with myself. When I was 23 and first moved to California with my family, I wanted to embrace the culture and swoon over the surfer archetypes as much as I love this state. I was also too busy preoccupied with other things where my sexuality would take the back seat. I have not considered women before because I have been so afraid. I would feel that women are too much drama. I heard a domestic violence situation across the street when I lived in Crestline about 3 or 4 years ago. It was between this lesbian couple and it was very intense. I have feared drama. I am understanding the fact that I can be attracted to women without desiring any serious relationships. When I was in high school, in Florida, I did not think twice about being gay because of the homophobic vibes I felt around me. In that FL town, there was a little white church in every subdivision just about. My peers would threaten or use homophobic slurs as insults to one another. It was hard enough with my traumatic experience in 7th and 8th grade. I could not afford anymore bullying. I joined the cheerleading squad for my senior year in high school, so I never thought twice about being gay, let alone revealing it. People may think that 28 is kind of a late age to discover your true sexuality. It really is not. I have heard of people who were married and with a family before realizing that they were gay. I just wanted to share this. I have been putting it off for weeks and now it is time. Don't be afraid to come out. If anyone else on here identifies as of LGBTQ(a person who is not straight or cisgender), please let me know. 
